this is me on paper or should i say the web...im really not like this in person...the voices in my head tell me that im pretty normal... ***************** UPDATE: no pictures yet but my guestbook is good to go so check it out and sign it...

"she clings to me like cellophane...fake plastic submarine...slowly driving me insane...but now that's over....why you always kick me when i'm high...knock me down till we see eye to eye...figured her out, i know she...may not be miss right but she'll do right now..."

well i started off this morning with a tad of homework...i thought i should at least start some of it so i dont have everything to do monday...before going to my cousins bday party, i go drop off a week old gift to a friends house...now its off to my cousins house...it took me about 30 minutes to get there...this was the first time for me to see their new house...oh and my stomach was pleased as well because there was lots of food...there were these shrimp-cake lookin thingys that were delicious...but what got me was this real light cake with a hint of orange and pineapple...it was soOo GOOD...i never tasted anything like it...i must have ate half the cake...after all the eating i played some bball with my bro, cousins and the neighborhood kids...im outta shape but i still put a whoopin on them kids...

at night the whole navigators crew (tim, david, melissa, kenny, tommy, shirley, fred, ian, and eileen) came over and then we headed to get some bolba drinks...afterwards we made a stop at alberto's...to satisfy that late night carne asada craving...and then off to fred's house...the rest of the night consisted of eating carne asada, listening to mp3s, a little mosh pitting, card games and a whole lot of laughs...it's never a boring night when the navs are around...
posted by ryan edu 2/17/2001

"people change, everyday, change like you...i got all the time in the world...people cry all the time, cry like me...we got all the time in the world...it's been so long that no one even asks...and everybody's walkin on the grass...grass that took a while to reappear...i'd forgotten green without you here..."

i wake up this morning...man and guess what...haha no school...it feels so good...i know i have lots of work to do but who cares...i sure as hell dont...so i spend my morning watching "get carter" and "lock, stock, and two smoking barrels"..."get carter" is stallone's latest flick...man hes is lookin old...he can still whoop ass though...the movie was ahrite...rachel leigh cook was in the movie...she's a cutie...hmm "lock, stock" is a guy ritchie film, the guy who made "snatch"...it was good but not as good as "snatch"...and if you haven't watched the movie yet, go out and watch it already...

at night i went to the devotion concert with the bantog brothers and lisa...the whole show was about 2 hours...they showcased lots of upcoming talent...they were ahrite...devotion's songs kinda sound all the same, but they're acapella was pretty impressive...their version of "more than words" is spiffy, go download it from napster...at the concert i felt pretty damn old...the majority of the crowd were high schoolers...too many of them were over dressing trying to look older and stuff...is it so hard just to be yourselves?...i guess so...anyways the highlight for the night for me was this hip hop dance group from UCSD...it was so friggin tight...

afterwards we try to meet and greet devotion because randy and chris are family friends with the bass of the group...thats so cool...actually knowing someone pursuing their dream of singing and knowing them from the beginning...we also had to thank him for the free tix he hooked us up with...it took us a while cause there were just mobs of girls...it doesnt matter who you are...if you go on stage and sing, girls will come...(note to self: must sing more)...hahah, after getting through the mobs we headed to tgif's for some appetizers...by the time i got home, it was about 2 in the morn so it was time to hit the hay...
posted by ryan edu 2/17/2001

"and the world's a stage...and the end is near...so push rewind just in time, thank anybody...you're gonna do it again...the way that she walks...its just the way that she talks, like it aint no thang...and every single day, is just a fling...then the morning comes..."

man today was a good day...even though i had to wake early for my 730 class everything was just clicking today...it all started with the smashmouth cd that i popped into my cd player this morning...the tunes were totally summertime vibin'...i was bobbin my head and singing all the way to school...usually i would be in a sleepy groggy mood but not this morning...it was pretty weird, the longer i played the cd it seemed the weather changed with it...the sun got brighter and the air became warmer...summertime was just leaking out of the cd...

after my morning class i go home and jump online to see who is on...right away i get two im's from people i haven't talked in a while...one was from my good friend iris, the other was my cousin anthony...iris i met when i was living in virginia beach...i havent seen her in about 7 years but we've kept in contact with each other the whole time...my cousin lives now in conneticut and i havent seen him in a few years...it felt good to reconnect and chat with them for the little time we did...never, i repeat NEVER lose contact of good friends and family...the way i see it, when times get rough who's going to be there?...family of course!...but then there are friends who are so close that they're practically family...yeah so reconnect...

well i have a four day weekend starting tomorrow and so how did i enjoy my thursday...haha watching some good ole tv...something that i usually dont do and something i wish i had more time to do...what i wanted to watch was "Ed"...i was introduced to this show by my buddy chris...it wasnt on tonight, it's on wednesday nights but i have night school then so i gotta record it...anyways i think its one of the best shows ive seen...so you all have to watch it...even one episode...i find it more real than those wack ass reality shows...so all the temptation, survivor, mole and whatever else the networks can come up with can all jump off a cliff and i hope you never come back...you want a quality hour of a show go watch "Ed"...

anyways so tonight i watched my weekly WB fix of "charmed"...i dont know whats with it but i just cant stop watching...two words that sum it up are probably - alyssa milano...damn she's hot *grRrRrr*...another show i watched was this special on fox...some conspiracy theory of how we never landed a man on the moon...they brought up some very convincing evidence...it makes you think about our country...would we go that far, to stage landings on the moon to uphold the great super power ideal that we have of ourselves...what can i say, the show was interesting and it makes you think twice...

posted by ryan edu 2/15/2001

"i could see clearly now, the rain is gone...i could see all obstacles in my way"...hah sunny, partly cloudy blue skies...but its still friggin cold...at least i could see the sun, the sun is my friend...well for lunch i made a huge pastrami and turkey sammich...mMMmM good!...well now im gonna go study for my physics test that ill be taking in a few hours...everyone wish me luck...

what can i say about the test...20 multiple choice...3 other questions parts a - f...2 hour limit, i stayed the whole time...oh and the turn out for the test...i think there was only 12 people in the whole class, "droppin like flies" we are...it was a pretty difficult test and if i pass ill be happy...if i get anything higher than that, ill be suprised...from now on i will do all my homework and try to do well in this class...there it is you can quote me on it...
posted by ryan edu 2/14/2001

"its raining its pouring the old man is snoring"...bio in the morn...after class i go to the chem lab to do my first lab...holy crap! can you say the worst lab conditions ever...the ceiling was leaking...the floor was all slick...the a/c was pumping like crazy...and then there was this funny odor you had to get used to...i mean i thought it was going to be better the next level up...cause first semester the other chem lab room was decent and the equipment was fairly new...they sugar coat it the first semester...its to sucker you in for the next semesters...cause if i knew what i was getting into, i definitely wouldnt want to take chem lab here...damn theyre just waiting for an accident to happen and waiting to get sued before things will change...well if everything goes as planned, next semester ill be leaving this hell hole and ill be in the labs at UCSD...oh yeah...
posted by ryan edu 2/13/2001

i wake to drizzle this morning and as i look toward the skies, i know its only going to get worse...ahh yes, it is monday...chem in the morn...lecture about acids/bases...ive had this friggin lecture every semester in chem...how long can they beat this into our skulls...what are we to become, walking "pH indicators"...i decide to stay to see if they can...maybe my professor will throw in something that i never picked up before...hah to no suprise she didnt...

after class i went to kragen auto parts to buy a headlight bulb...yeah i have night school tonight so i dont want to be driving as "one-eyed willie"...there are so many people who drive with only one headlight working...but i wont lower myself and join those fools...even worse there are others who drive without lights at all...maybe they think driving in "stealth mode" will get them to their destinations quicker...im surrounded by IDIOTS!

anyways as i was driving to school, i see a red stoplight ahead...i gently hit the brakes and then my car dies...my car is still moving and its just sliding along...i must have slid 20 feet...luckily there was no one in front of me and even better my car stopped in the cross walk...i couldve went into on coming traffic...my chest was all tight afterwards...man this freaked me out...well as you can guess i drove a tad slower than usual after that...

well my professor in physics announced the first test coming this wednesday...im kinda scared...i want to do well in the class but im totally not motivated...physics is just not in my area of interest...oh ill be on my kness praying on wednesday...
posted by ryan edu 2/12/2001

hah what did i tell you...my sunday consisted of nothing but homework...well almost...i spent the morning running errands and getting ready for a get together at lunch...quite a few of my relatives and cousins came down from la...as always there was a feast o' plenty...and yes, i did over eat again today...i really hope this doesnt become a habit...isnt that gluttony...thats real bad...whenever i hear that word i think of that fat guy in "seven"...not a pretty sight...

now im in the wee morning hours updating my site and catching up with all the emails...oh no! it's monday tomorrow...i mean right now...ahh school in a few hours...ive got to catch some zZzZZ's...
posted by ryan edu 2/11/2001