read a day in the life of me...or the week or the last couple months...its really up to you... ***************** UPDATE: ill have a song lyric everyday...see if you can figure who it is or where it comes from...no pictures yet but my guestbook is good to go so check it out and sign it...

"it's alright to tell me...what you think about me...i won't try to argue...or hold it against you...i know that you're leaving...you must have your reasons...the season is calling...your pictures are falling down..."

it's a real good thing that i didnt go out last night...i woke up this morning feeling like sh*t...im in agonizing pain...my stomach is churning and i feel nauseated...my eyes are burning, i have a temp of 100.2...i also have the shivers and i just want to ball up in the fetal postion on my bed and never have to get up again...damn im feeling wasted and i didnt even drink...this day so far isnt the greatest...

so what did i do today, nothing but sleep...i think i clocked in a total of 15+ hours...what did i eat, soup and crackers the whole day...before i went to bed last night, with my brain all frying from the fever i got to thinkin'...im hardly ever sick, i had no symptoms that this was going to happen to me...my body just went into total shut down mode...yeah its a pretty scary thing...the last time this happened was the week of my finals last semester...that was just from burning out on school...this time its burning out on work...well im going to sleep again...goodnight *zZzzZ*...
posted by ryan edu 3/10/2001

"baby you know, you can call me anytime...anything you needed, I would give it to you...that's how much I care for you...wanna act now, never call me back now...turnin' off your cell phone, girl you know that aint cool...I don't understand baby...baby, it's a shame we gotta go through this...we can't even talk, girl we don't even kiss...i never woulda thought we'd be breakin' up like this...but it's over now..."

hah i finally made it on time to my morning chem class...but with no suprise it was about something that ive already learned...yup it seems that i learned it all in high school and i just see it over and over, like some freaky deja vu...well after class i headed back home to chill for a little bit cause i had to work on the rental house in the afternoon...i was feeling tired but i didnt want to go back to bed...i decided to watch a movie instead...i watched stanley kubrick's classic "clorkwork orange"...its a psychological movie with a mix of violence, sex, drugs, and classical music...after watching the movie all i can say is that kubrick was all twisted in the head...

manual labor, i know oh too well...and no, he isn't some mexican guy...its hardwork that makes your body scream in pain...so the afternoon comes along and im back at the rental...i mostly do yardwork cause the inside was finished yesterday...yeah this should be the last day of working on it cause i think we found tenants for the place already...good news to my ears cause i dont want to see this place again for a while...

my body's hurtin'...and i just found out that the tenants met my dad this evening and put down money already...it seems the whole family was there all excited...my dad says the kids were running around the house picking out their rooms and all...yup yup my body's pain is at ease a bit to know that a family's happiness has come out of my hard work...my job there is done...

its friday night...a few of my friends are hitting the club up tonight...my body just said "no can do"...and a few others went "broom balling"...yeah it kinda sucks to know everyone is having fun when im stuck at home my body all shriveled on top of my bed...well it looks like ill be sleeping early tonight, which is something that i never do...damn and its a friday night...
posted by ryan edu 3/9/2001

"the heart is a bloom...shoots up through the stony ground...there's no room...no space to rent in this town...you're out of luck...and the reason that you had to care...the traffic is stuck...and you're not moving anywhere..."

oh, what a day...it was bright blue and sunny this morning...i didnt enjoy this early in the morning because i skipped my 730 bio class...i was just too tired...when my alarm rang, i just pulled the covers over my head...the little person on my left shoulder told me to get up and go to school...but the person on my right shoulder said i was too tired to go...i agreed with the one on my right shoulder...so i slept in...when i did get up, i had to work on my rental house...we're trying to pull it all together before the weekend...i think we found tenants for the place, which is real good news...im tired of working on it already...i dont want to see it again for a while...

after lunch i had my bio lab...everyone was asking "where were you this morning? working on your notebook i bet"...yes i was gone this morning but it wasnt because of the lab notebook we had to put together and turn in today...they just wouldnt understand my situation...well after class i went straight back to the rental house and worked till about 800...my dad already told me we got a whole bunch of sh*t to do tomorrow...i am so exhausted right now and i still got homework to do...ahh forget it im going to bed...
posted by ryan edu 3/8/2001

"well everyone I know has got a reason, to say, put the past away...i wish you would step back from that ledge my friend...you could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in...and if you do not want to see me again, i would understand..."

it's dead quiet in my car without the radio on...i could hear everything happening on the outside though...the tires on the pavement...the wind rushing by...the tiny rocks hitting the front of my car...this is what happens when you dont listen to the radio...im giving it up for lent, but just for a week...i dont know if i could go for forty days...im already delirious after one day without the radio...talking to myself...making up my own songs...cursing all the drivers around me...it's all downhill from here...

chem in the morn...got back the take home chem test...got a phat "A" on it...hahah i hope she continues to give this kind of test but i doubt, well it was good while it lasted...

finally had an eye appointment...should be getting my contacts sometime next week...oh yeah!...after my appointment i had 20 minutes to finish a physics lab...barely finished got to class a little late...didnt do my homework...so i did it in class...the thing is everyone turns it in at the beginning of class...so during the lab when the professor was busy...i seized the opportunity to slide my homework in the pile...smooth...well the professor was tired and wanted to go home so he performed the lab for us...our class ends at 1030 but we were out by 800...i just dig it when he does our lab work for us...
posted by ryan edu 3/7/2001

"hey bonita, glad to meet ya...for the kind of stunning newness, I must have foreseen ya...hey, being with you is a top priority...ain't no need to question the authority...chairman of the board, the chief of affections...you got mine's to swing in your direction...hey, you're like a hip hop song, you know?...bonita applebum, you gotta put me on..."

i had my 730 bio class this morning...i was just dying...i cant sit in the back of the class or anything because the way the seats are arranged...they're a half circle around the front of the class...so anywhere you sit your near the friggin professor...i was tired and the lecture was boring so i said screw it and put my head down...after class i ran some errands...i had to get a broken window fixed for our rental house...i went to this one window repair shop that i went to before but when i pulled up in the parking lot, their store was empty...i was thinkin' where the hell did they go...so i decided to call them up in the yellow pages and i found out they relocated...it took me 30 minutes to find the place because of the rain...

for lunch we planned on going to oscar's for eileen's birthday...nick and angelo were stuck in traffic so me, eileen, and raquel were at my pad just talking and chillin waiting for them...after 2 hours angelo finally shows up..it seems there was an accident...two 18 wheelers and an explorer...not a good situation...so with everyone finally together, we head to oscar's...we meet nick there and he's with arlene and his little cousin...we're all starving so we order the family feast...a medium pizza, caesar salad, breadsticks, chicken wings and pasta...it was enough to feed 8 hungry people...

afterwards we all went our separate ways but raquel hooked us up with tickets to "the mexican"...so me and eileen decided to watch it...it's a good date movie...romance with a little comedy...the movies 2 hours long so it kinda dragged on here and there, but overall i recommend watching it...

i go home do a little chem homework and then call up glenn...he's leaving tomorrow so i decide to kick it with him before he leaves...we just shoot the breeze, talking about samurai swords, "moose" knuckles, the new subaru impreza coming out, problems, etc...
posted by ryan edu 3/6/2001

"we all want to hold in the everlasting gaze...enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway...but underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every cog...the fickle fascination of an everlasting God...you know I'm not dead...i'm just living in my head...forever waiting, forever waiting a cruel death..."

i just found out last night that jerome's server is down...meaning that my website is in limbo...so when things get running again i guess everyone out there will see a grip load of posts to catch up on...

monday...chem in the morning...mind just wandering off...my hand continues to write yet im not connected to the class...word is spreading that i have the disk of last semesters chem labs...now i got all these people asking me for favors...dammit someone has a huge ass mouth...

after class i go home eat lunch and try to get some sleep before my night class...my sister's friends are over and they're making all this noise...so i wake up after 40 minutes...and im pissed...this is the only time for me to get some peace and quiet and then im interrupted...yeah my sis has been getting on my bad side lately...

im in physics while the professor is just jabbering away...nothing he is saying is making any sense...right now i could careless about physics, but then i look at the schedule and it looks like our second test is coming next week...ahh crap, its catch up time...
posted by ryan edu 3/5/2001

"she falls apart by herself...no ones there to talk or understand...feels sustained, dries here eyes...finds herself, opens the door inside...people see right through you...everyone who knew you well...falls apart, might as well...day is long and nothing is wasteful..."

woke up at 7 this morning...my body aches from yesterday's work...maintaining a house is punishing labor...especially if you have more than one to look after...but someone has to do it...i guess all this hard work will pay off in the future...i know i complain a lot now but ill be able to reap the rewards later...to bad that later cant be now...oh well...

well we got the majority of the work on the house completed...the house is much more presentable now...our projected goal is to finsh the house by this week...it will get done...but the thing is, that means that ill be going to the house after school...and i already know that im behind in school...oh no!

at night me and the fellas had a bbq at glenn's house...this is one thing i definitely miss...getting everyone together and having a good ole fashioned cook out...we had burgers, ribs, mashed potatoes, "drunken" sushi, and steak...yes it was a feast o' plenty...we had a great time just chillin eating and watching jackass...our stomaches hurt from eating and laughing too much...ahh the good times...
posted by ryan edu 3/4/2001

"you're trying to find a reason for the way you feel tonight...you're mind is lined with layers of lead...have you heard one thing that i've said?...don't wanna talk about it...i say why not?...don't wanna think about it...i say there's got to be some good reason..."

woke up bright and early...off to work i go...basically we painted the enitre interior of the house...after about 10 hours of labor im stinkin' tired and hungry...

later i kicked it with glenn, mark, and chris...we went to keiths, the better than denny's place...i had a vanilla sundae with hot fudge, it was pretty good...i usually dont order desserts but i think ill be doing it a little more often...afterwards we headed back to glenn's pad and watched an anime called "cowboy bebop"...well i had to leave early cause i got work again tomorrow...
posted by ryan edu 3/4/2001