read a day in the life of me...or the week or the last couple months...its really up to you... ***************** UPDATE: ill have a song lyric everyday...see if you can figure who it is or where it comes from...no pictures yet but my guestbook is good to go so check it out and sign it...

"i memorize the basics...making strange faces...there's a thousand miles to go...without blinking...gravitate spacewards...find a home for the head...from my basement...no darkness ever left..."

my saturday was spent in la...its been one year since my uncle passed away...there was lots of people which = lots of food...heheh...i ended up eating lots, burning cds, and watching dvds the whole time...after that gathering i went to another cousins house for a birthday party...yeah me and my cousins ended up playing "mafia" again...when i think about it, its ironic celebrating life and death the same day...
posted by ryan edu 3/17/2001

"i remember shots without a chaser...absent minded thoughts now you're a stranger...cover up the scars put on your gameface...left you in the bar to try and save face...you can only lean on me for so long...bring the ship about to watch a friend drown...sit out on the ledge, begged you to come down...you can only lean on me for so long..."

im feeling better today, i had chem in the morn which wasnt too bad...after doing some errands in the morn i went to the driving range with my friend angelo...man it felt great to just let go and swing at some golf balls...i used to go to the driving range with the fellas a few months ago but we havent gone lately...afterwards we putted around on the green...putt-putt without all the obstacles...its not as exciting but there is skill involved...im no putting master but i have decent game...hey im up to the challenge if you ever want to test me...muwahaha...

well at night me and my bro rick go bowling with angelo and his bro...i thought it was going to be brothers vs brothers but we switched it up...i didnt do as well as i wanted to but rick ended up just killing all of us...yeah good times...
posted by ryan edu 3/16/2001

today just SUCKED ASS...i dont know why...school SUCKS...life SUCKS...*middle finger*...yeah thats for all of those people who make life miserable for others...I HATE YOU!...im having a BAD FUCKING day cant you tell...
posted by ryan edu 3/15/2001

"up the stairs to the apartment...she is balled up on the couch...her mom and dad went down to charlotte...they're not home to find us out...and we drive...now that I have found someone...i'm feeling more alone...than I ever have before...she's a brick and I'm drowning slowly...off the coast and I'm headed nowhere..."

im in my school parking lot, in a lane ready to take this lady's spot...some idiot goes up the one way lane and we're facing each other...im thinkin what the hell is this guy's problem...there is a huge ass arrow pointing the opposite direction and im not moving anywhere...he insists that i let him go, and im thinkin hell no...so he tries to get around me...its a one way lane for a reason moron...so he's trying to manuver and he ends up scratching my car...now im thinkin imma beat yo' ass...he says hes sorry backs off and quickly drives away...luckily he didnt stay too long cause i was really thinkin of breaking his nose...yeah i dont need any more stress on me...i just hope i never see him or his car in this parking lot as long as i go here....

i just bombed my chem quiz...i knew everything but messed up this one detail...everything revolved around that one specifc so it threw off the whole thing...yup there goes that quiz...well i still have a test in physics to study for...

physics went much better...i wasnt nervous at all which was strange rather i was calm cool and collected...my mind was clear and i think i did pretty good...i answered every question except one...yeah the whole class was stumped on it...the professor was getting pissed cause we were all asking the same questions about the same problem...well im crossing my fingers and i hope i pass the test...
posted by ryan edu 3/14/2001

"can't you hear those calvary drums...hijacking your equilibrium...midnight hags in the mausoleum...where the pixilated doctors moan...carnivores in the kowloon night...breathing freon by the candlelight...coquettes bitch slap you're so polite..till you thank them for their tea and sympathy..."

i was freezing this morning...piled on the layers and then headed to school...after my morning bio i went to do a chem lab...i was talking to my lab partner kelly (a recent grad from ucsd back in school to become a pharmacist) and she could tell i was rushing to get out of the lab and remarked that i would fit in nicely at ucsd...that made my day =)...yeah she says the university has 4 hour labs and there are those who want to get out and others who just love to stay the whole time...i could tell she was one of those who wanted to get out...and thats how i am, so when we work together we're in and out in no time...

after lab its sunny and warm...all the layers i put on for the morning are working against me now...im sweating but im going home now...i enjoy my tuesdays...its probably cause i only have one class...

i get home eat...take a nap and then do a bio and physics lab...get my weekly fix of "dark angel" and im done for the day...i should be studying for the quiz and test i have tomorrow but im feeling tired...weird, usually i can go till about 2 then i call it quits...but not today...yup it looks like ill be craming as usual...wish me luck everyone...
posted by ryan edu 3/13/2001

"it's been a hard day's night, and I been working like a dog...it's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log...but when I get home to you I'll find the things that you do...will make me feel alright..."

im feeling good this monday morning, just a little weak though...ahh it's a monday so that means school...the trek up a flight of stairs at my school was killer...my knees were shaking...usually i hike up them pretty quickly, skipping steps...but today i went one by one and i almost resorted to holding the railing to provide support...like an old geezer i be...anyways chem in the morning was ahrite just worked problems the whole time...after school went home did some physics homework then took me a nap...im getting used to this "sleep a whole lot, then feel much better" cure...it does wonders i tell ya...

after a crappy weekend, im reminded today that i have a quiz in chem and a test in physics this wednesday...this week is gonna be a long week i can already tell...
posted by ryan edu 3/12/2001

"i can't stand it i know you planned it...but i'm gonna set it straight, this watergate...i can't stand rocking when i'm in here...because your crystal ball ain't so crystal clear...so while you sit back and wonder why...i got this f*cking thorn in my side...oh my, it's a mirage...i'm tellin' y'all it's a sabotage"

i feel a little better this morning...the fever is gone along with the chills...but my eyes are still burning and my stomach is still twisted in knots...i spend nearly half my morning near or around the toilet cause my stomach was bothering me that bad...for lunch more soup and crackers...after lunch i clean up a little and then go straight for my bed...

i wake up, body still all hurtin'...i got so much homework to do...ah forget it, it aint gonna happen...hopefully ill be at 80% tomorrow and then slowly get back to 100%...yeah now its on the road to recovery...
posted by ryan edu 3/11/2001