"candles raise my desire...why I'm so far away...no more meaning to my life...no more reason to stay...freezing feeling, breathe in - breathe in...i'm coming back again...i'm not the one who's so far away...when I feel the snake bite into my veins...never did I wanna be here again...and I don't remember why I came..."

this morning i was up bright and early to go to a beach clean up...me and a couple of my friends from class decided to go to get some extra credit for bio class...the only problem was that it was really dark and gloomy and it was sprinkling a bit...when we got to the beach it was windy and cold...hmm not a good day to have a beach clean up...while we were picking up trash off the beach (beer bottles, coat hangers, and a massive amount of cigarette butts) the wind started to pick up and the rain began to fall harder...yet we continued for an hour and a half, me and the other 10 volunteers...after this whole experience we collected over 100 pounds of trash and as a reward a free t-shirt, bagels, and subway sandwiches...not a bad way to start off earth day weekend...
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"we don't need to escalate...you see, war is not the answer...for only love can conquer hate...you know we've got to find a way...to bring some lovin' here today...picket lines and picket signs...don't punish me with brutality...talk to me, so you can see...oh, what's going on..."

i just got caught up with all my GBMers...chris was in a fender-bender, hope you doin ahrite buddy...cinny is stressin over AP tests...have you seen the changes, ill never have a cool looking website like hers...dan's got a cousin visiting from sd...jeremy brings up a huge "what if" scenario...jerome is busy with school and korean girls...

at night i went to the movies with chris and randy...we watched "memento"...its a damn good movie and worth watching a second time...its about a guy searching for his wife's murderer...i dont want to give away too much so just look for it and go watch it...
blogged by ryan! 00:17

"i only smile in the dark...my only comfort is the night gone black...i didn't accidentally tell you that...i'm only happy when it rains...you'll get the message by the time I'm through...when I complain about me and you...i'm only happy when it rains..."

big lab exam in bio today...all our past labs condensed into one single test...theres so much material to go over that its taken me over 2 hours of quality cramming...hopefully all the work that i put in is enough for a "B" but if it isnt, then i shouldnt have studied at all...maybe ryan, you should try studying little by little ahead of time you say...heh that'll probably never happen...procrastination just gets the best of me...yeah i want to change before this laziness just envelops me...i just need a good kick in the ass...OUCH!
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"it's all I want...it's all I needed now it's through...it all comes back to you...the only one...the one I needed I abuse...more color for the bruise...so I sing this song for you...there's nothing left for me to do..."

this morning before class a few of us were still working on that test...we were all stumped by this one particular question...and right outside of class a group of people were copying each others answers...they werent even trying to be nonchalant about it or anything...i know our professor saw them...i hope this doesnt affect future take home exams...heheh...

for lunch i went to oscars with a couple friends...make that pat and oscar's...they're going through a name change for their 10 year anniversary...salad, breadsticks, lemon chicken, and baby back ribs now thats a good lunch...

afterwards we went to zany brainy, a kid's store (toys, books, etc.)...that place is so cool, toys lying everywhere just beckoning to be picked up...so thats what we ended up doing for about half an hour...its because of places like these that make me not want to grow up...it was just so simple when we were younger...carefree and full of energy and life...what happened to us? when and where did we go wrong?

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"what have we done with innocence?...it disappeared with time, it never made much sense...adolescent resident...wasting another night on planning my revenge...don't want to be your Monkey Wrench...one more indecent accident...i'd rather leave than suffer this...i'll never be your Monkey Wrench..."

after chem lab, a whole group of us were working on our take home chem test...with all this group effort everyone is looking to a phat "A" on this test...while we were working someone brought up the subject of cute girls...everyone agreed that there was one in our chem class...some guys are fallin for her, others say shes very easy on the eyes...yup it seems everyones jockin her...heheh...it seems everyone has gotten to talk to her...but ryan is ahead of the game, i started talking to her after the first week of class...hey im a nice guy who just wants to meet all the cuties out there...

and this leads to me to another - where are all the cute girls at?...it seems the deeper i get into my major...the cute girls are far and few in between...throughout my 3 classes (chem, bio, and physics) theres only ONE cute girl...that is not a good ratio of people to cute girls (120:1)...so me and this other guy in class get to talkin about when we had the most cute girls in our classes...yup it was during those early GE courses (psych, english, math, sociology) when those cute girls were in abundance...but now they're scarce...so he says that one of his friends took a yoga class and he was just surrounded by these women...think about it, how many guys take yoga?...ZERO!...so if anybody is considering taking a yoga class anytime give me a call or something...i think ill check it out, the class of course =)...
blogged by ryan! 23:44

"i took my love and i took it down...climbed a mountain and turned around...and i saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills...'til the landslide brought it down...oh, mirror in the sky -what is love?...can the child within my heart rise above?...can i sail through the changin'...ocean tides...can i handle the seasons of my life?...i don't know, i don't know..."

i am now in school, so my spring break is officially over =(...its good i have a 1030 class on mondays cause my body wouldnt have gotten up at 6...yup today was the day to catch up with everyone to see what they did over break...most people did nothing special...usually just work...but there was a general feel that break went by pretty quick and that we were all getting used to no school...spring break is over but we all are already looking forward to summer...heheh...
blogged by ryan! 10:21

"politically correct and mentally erect I'm doing everything I can to conserve the best But life ain't nothin but a bowl a grits and this United States proud crap makes me sick People tell me go make a name for yourself cause that's the only way you're gonna get outta this hell I'm gonna try and try and try and do all that I can but I'll never understand it's guaranteed I'm making minimum wage..."

i spent my entire saturday in la...yup working on my ghetto complex...it wasnt any fun...basically i was working on the roof at the edge of a two story building...big whoop...yeah if i slip then my body comes crashing down on the hard concrete, breaking my bones and piercing my internal organs...so i do my best not to make any mistakes...yeah so im on the roof and the sun is just beating down on me...i get a little dizzy and trip on a wire...but using cat like instinct i fall flat on the roof away from the edge...man if i fell forward i wouldnt be typing this right now...yup its good to be alive...

speaking of being alive the reason for the trip to la was also to visit my uncle who just suffered a heart attack a week ago...hes doing fine now...but he says hes gonna miss eating those double-doubles from in and out...well at least hes alive to make the right changes in his life to avoid stuff like this again...some arent so lucky and in the percentage when they feel the heart attack, its just too late...so all you people out there, take care of yourself...

well tomorrow i have school and so my spring break is over...i didnt get to do anything that i wanted to get done over this break like play my guitar, change this site, go to the gym, etc...oh well ill get these accomplished sometime in the upcoming months...hopefully...
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